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Name: Molly
Country: United States
State: Arkansas
Metro: Russellville
Birthday: 2/6/1986
Gender: Female
Interests: my relationship with God, MLB (i love the Cardinals), Frank Sinatra, John Mayer, the Goo Goo Dolls, Train, other non-rap music, theology, American history, Starbucks, big cities, travel, Barbies, and The Peanuts Gang, girly stuff (skirts, jewelry, purses, shoes), book stores
Expertise: baking, cooking, writing, running, taking naps, scrapbooking, arts and crafts, procrastinating, dock sitting
Occupation: Student
Industry: Education
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AIM:  cardinalschick25
MSN: hottamale45@hotmail.com
Member Since:
1/31/2005
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| There's just something about the strums on an acoustic guitar that make me want to write. I've been sitting at the computer for awhile and suddenly, I got this urge to listen to music... craving, really. I found my iPod, turned on the Goos and now I'm just sitting here in heavenly bliss as Johnny Rzenik and the rest of the guys play their sweet melodies through my ears. In the mail today, I received an envelope that said "do not bend" from my university. It was my degree. I officially have a certified college degree. Wow, that's unreal. Before today, it was just something "spoken," but it's actually real. It's an expensive piece of paper. And where has that college degree taken me? To a full time job at the church daycare again. Ugh. It's not the worse job in the world, I realize, but it's not where I want to be. Last year, I took the job, knowing it was my summer job. Now, I feel like I should have my "real world" job and this is not it. This is not what I'm called to be doing. I'm writing part time at the newspaper though. I get excited when I walk in the newsroom down there. There's just something about it. I can't explain it. Maybe I'm just a huge nerd. I don't know. But, I really want that job to be full time really soon. My editor told me today that he's made progress on making that full time. Keep your fingers crossed. Well, I have to go to bed. I'm getting up early for a bike ride... 30 miles. This is my last thing to conquer before I can think about doing triathalons. Good speed. | | |
| Well kids, the time has finally come.
In less than 3 hours, I will be sitting in Tucker Coliseum, wearing a black cap and gown, preparing to shake Dr. Brown's hand and receive something that will soon hold a really expensive piece of paper.
Yup, it's college graduation day.
And what a weird feeling this is... It seems like not that long ago I was waking up on a Saturday morning, having stayed out the whole night after high school graduation. My grandparents were in town. My mom was downstairs making breakfast.
Now, I sit here in my apartment, waiting for my family to get here to watch me walk across the stage. There is complete silence, how I like it in the morning sometimes. How I like it after a long day too.
Today just doesn't seem real. It seems like I may have forgot something or cheated... Are they really letting me graduate? I have this fear (or maybe a small hope) that I'm going to go to my seat and they will come to me and say "Excuse me, Ms. *******, you can't graduate today," and then I can return to the glorious world of "college life."
But is that what I want? I think I've outgrown this place. Everything just seems a little "old." Even I feel old. The routine is mundane. I'm ready for something new. I need a bigger adventure. Honestly, I think I'm as ready as I'll ever be.
So bring it on, real world. Show me what you got! I've got a whole 5 years of knowledge to contribute... and everything else I may have learned in high school. I want to know what else is out there besides school... well, undergrad school at least.
Anyway, I need to get the ball rolling on this "getting ready" process. The folks will probably be leaving to come up here soon and I should be somewhat ready to go.
God speed.
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| If someone were to have asked me 5 years ago where I would be at in my life five years from then, I would have told them I would have a successful job and be in a serious relationship, possibly engaged.
Yet, here I am, still in college. And a very single gal.
However, if someone were to have told me at that same point that I would run a marathon in the first part of February of that year and then get a tattoo, I would have fallen on the floor and laughed at them. At that point in my life, running around the softball field 5 times was a really long distance. I was too conservative to even think about getting a tattoo (yeah, I was once conservative).
Moral of that story... one door closed, another opened. I took the road less traveled. Now I have an awesome tattoo and a New Orleans Marathon finisher's medal. I think that's quite exciting.
My tattoo is on the inside of my left foot and it says "athlete" in Greek. It's all black. I got "athlete" because I've played sports my whole life and have always loved it. I hope to keep sports as a part of my life and even incorporate the fun of sports into my childrens' lives (the 2 of them). I got it in Greek because the Greeks created the marathon and I got the tattoo because I finished a marathon. Also, I've always been fascinated with Greek culture, especially their view of women. They really believed in female athletes, which was intriguing. I always said I would get a tattoo after my first marathon... so I had to stand by word.
And now to change the subject... the problem with living alone is I don't have anyone to carry on random conversations with. Therefore, I think a lot. Though, they aren't usually depressing thoughts, I get very analytical of myself.
I had one of those weekends where I spent most of Saturday by myself, and a good portion of Sunday. I ended up at the lake to continue thinking. I love going to the lake. It's my sanctuary. It's where I feel closer to Him. Going to the lake is a big hug for me from Him. It's just comforting. I think it's comforting because it reminds me of my FAVORITE summer in Lake Village. I miss the connection I had with Him that summer. I think it's because I was outside all the time and I had a really great church. I can't wait to get connected to a church again. I know you don't have to go to church to be a Christian, but I like to be connected to people through church. I'm a big fan of fellowship.
I could write on here forever. I need a coffeehouse conversation. You know the ones that are held over comfy couches and coffee... and usually with someone I'm just friends with, not best friends, just friends. I just want to talk over coffee about religion, politics... and other deep discussions. Not school, not people, not the weather. I need a discussion. I need to exercise my discussion muscles. I can't remember the last time I had a good late night discussion. I usually avoid them because I'm afraid of the repercussions, but I just need one.
I need to work out. I'm very blah. [sigh] God Speed.
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| he broke me.
i used to have high hopes that everything in life would turn out. everything as far as relationships go, but i don't have that anymore. having your best friend tell you that he no longer wants you in his life really breaks a girl.
i don't expect relationships to work out. i've seen too many marriages fail. sure, i know people who are in relationships right now that will work out and i expect... or am already planning... to go to their marriage some day.
but, i dont expect things to work out with me and the opposite sex. maybe i just haven't met "the one." i think even when i do meet this person, i will not expect it to work out. because you see... i'm broken. i belong on the island of misfit toys.
maybe it's just that i am so focused on getting out of school that i really can't imagine keeping up with a relationship at this point in time. it has been said that every girl has the relationship status that she wants at that time. i dont hate being single. sure, it sucks when i need a "plus one," but there are other times that i love the single life. i like going out with my girls and flirting across the room with guys. but i don't really want to keep track of someone... or have them want to keep track of me. i'm a busy kid. most guys don't understand that. right now, my priorities are (besides the obvious like family and the Big Guy) 1) school 2) newspaper 3)sorority obligations. a relationship would be number 4... which it shouldn't be. guys want to feel wanted.
i think i may be too independent for my own good. i don't like to depend on a lot of other people because they just let you down. letting a guy in my life requires me to break down a lot of walls, unlock some chains and open a couple of fences. i'm just not ready to go through the trouble yet. i don't want to do that and then have to build another wall. i'm tired of it, i'm broken.
i'll be alright. really. it's 3:15am. i should go to bed. i just had to get this out and i dont think anyone i know is awake. God speed.
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| I have been presented with a challenge to create my Top 10 movie list. In order for a movie to make my list, it has to have interesting dialogue, attractive scenery and just a great overall look and feel to the movie. 10. Field of Dreams I love baseball and baseball history. This movie has both. Plus, they go and see "The Green Monster," one of the few historic ball parks still standing. And, they have baseball players in their corn field! It's amazing. I once told my Dad that I wanted to build a ballpark like that in our back yard. Just to have that field in my back yard would be a dream come true. Plus, you can't beat the part where the wife stands up and tells off the lady in the PTA meeting! 9. Hook I have always been fascinated with the story of Peter Pan. In fact, I wrote my senior research paper about J.M. Barrie, the author of Peter Pan. This movie makes the story real, which fascinates me. No matter how many times I watch it, I still hope the story is true. 8. Rent The music is this movie is one of my favorite soundtracks to rock out to in my car. I love the story too. I would love to see this on Broadway. This movie really captures the human spirit, I think. It also defines love...who says it can only be between a man and woman. I think the movie really brought to light the love been a gay couple. 7. The Departed With the A-list of actors in this movie, it was sure to deliver. And it most certainly did. Jack Nicholson steals the show as a crazy old mobster. Leo "came back" in this movie, redefining himself as a quality actor. There are lots of great quotes in this movie as well. 6. When Harry Met Sally This movie set out to answer the age old question "Can men and women really be just friends?" The struggle between the two actors to stay "just friends" is what makes this movie a classic. Also, one of AFI's top 100 movie quotes is in this movie, so you know its a great flick. 5. League of their Own As I said, I love baseball history. And when the women took the field during World War II, women's sports were never the same. The actresses in this movie really help bring to life an important era in America's pasttime. The struggles they encountered make this movie, not only a classic film, but a salute to the real women who were faced with those against them. 4. An Affair to Remember I am in love with Carey Grant, what can I say. He's a prelude to Carrie's Mr. Big. He's just so suave and sophisticated. The banter between him and his co-star is very comical, which gives the movie an extra sparkle. This movie is referenced in Sleepless in Seatle, which is how I found out about it. It's a super chick-flick, but it's a great classic film. 3. Sandlot I always wanted to play baseball with these guys, especially during the time period this movie is based. The whole adventure in the movie just seems like a lot of fun. I know placing it at number 3 on my list is rather high, but I've loved this movie since I was a kid. It's a classic. 2. Pulp Fiction Great dialogue. Amazing camera shots. Interesting plot twists. Tarantino. Enough said. And my absolute favorite movie of all time.... 1. Almost Famous It's a movie about a kid that writes for Rolling Stone, during the peak of rock and roll, the 1970s. It is based on a true story. The kid encounters some of the greatest rock stars of the time period. The band he is with busts out singing some of my favorite songs during the movie, which definitely wins me over. Plus, I have a soft spot for movies about journalists. I just love this film. | | |
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